1. A friend like you
3. Maryam and Eliador
4. State of grace
5. The golden thread
6. Stella Maris
7. Thank you
9. Love will always heal your heart
10. Holy sparks
12. State of grace (undressed)
13. Footsteps (poem only)
11 remarkable, dynamic and compelling new tracks, with a unifying plaintive,
mystical and heart-centred theme. There are spine-tingling and emotive
piano-based spiritual love songs; jaunty and mythic guitar-pick based folk
ballads; stirring, anthemic instrumental passages, and even spoken word, which
goes straight to the heart. An album full of grace, passion, hope and intimate
tenderness, all held together by Asher's visionary lyrics; pure, disarming
voice, and the sheer beauty of the music.
about the songs
songs were all written and recorded between November 2012, and April
2013. I had just released my previous album, "Sacred Songs" in October
2012, when my faithful little cat companion, Chipi, got ill and died.
Chipi had been glued to me most of the time, these last few years! She
slept on the bean-bag in my study, perfectly camouflaged, or she sat on
my desk, pulling out all the pens and small papers, repeatedly, and
grinning. When I saw my therapy clients she curled up on my lap. In bed
would tap my nose politely, to stroke her.
The ways of the world
are strange; the energy pathways and vibrations silent and mysterious.
Chipi came into my life at about the same time as my twin-flame, Emoke,
in 2007. Emoke lifted my spirit to an altogether higher place, and went
on to design my website and artwork so gracefully. Our connection was
spiritual, but we grieved that we just could not have a more
companionable relationship because of life circumstances… age,
geography, responsibility and so on. What a fate, to connect to your
twin-soul, but at slightly the 'wrong' time! There is no wrong time in
life, of course, our fate is orchestrated tenderly to include
everything that we need, to become realised beings of light, which
includes free will and making impossible decisions!
Emoke fell very ill, and realised that only a complete separation from
me would set her free, and that she had to channel her considerable
energies into her own life, and not mine. So we said goodbye
beautifully, and painfully.
For six months we lived in that
finality, each of us grieving profoundly. But in November, we
re-connected in a different way. Emoke was recovering slowly, and felt
that she had successfully changed the configuration around me in her
heart, allowing contact, but with different boundaries. It was clear
that we didn't just do good work together, and were not merely 'muy
sympatico'… we were twin-flames, inseparable in spirit.
we couldn't share a life… indeed Spirit talked to us, indicating that
the connection must stay in the heart, not in any marriage or
home-making sense… we had a connection that could still be bountiful,
creatively. Emoke is my muse, and my being is equivalently a great
channel for her own expression. I intuited that a blessed re-connection
was possible, and made contact again. No sooner had this taken place,
than my little cat fell in and died. In the same week.
was such an intense cauldron of emotion. My joy and relief at
reconnecting to Emoke, and my anguish and grief around Chipi, swirled
around, day and night, stretching time and meaning into the strangest
of new shapes. Because of a silent cancer (diagnosed to have probably
started at about the same time that Emoke fell ill), Chipi was given
days to live because of fluid retention. I chose to be present and hold
her as she was put to sleep, and I howled with sorrow.
night, a friend and colleague, Mei-Ling Grey (Myristica), sent me a new
tune of hers as a thank-you for my help, in a healing sense, not
knowing at all what was going on in this other strand of my life.
Mei-Ling had also survived a serious illness. Her tune touched my heart
deeply, and addressed my profound sorrow, so I immediately wrote a
thank-you song for my little cat, to Mei-Ling's tune, and it became my
sanctuary for a number of days. That was the first of three
collaborations with Myristica on this album, the others being 'Stella
Maris' and 'Inspirit'… both magical, other-worldly melodies that I felt
inspired to honour with verse.
I undertook a shamanic journey
around Chipi, and found out that she came and went as a voluntary
sacrifice in Spirit, so that I could survive attachment and loss as a
conscious adult, and come to understand the greater meaning of it. She
herself came from the Great Mother through Cat consciousness, out of
unconditional love, and then returned to Cat. A magnificent Panther
told me that she was 'back with them!'
On December 1st I gave a
concert in Copenhagen for a friends' big birthday. I borrowed a
keyboard from friend Lawrence Lindhart, and, still grieving for my
little cat who had died just days earlier, began to improvise. I came
up with a mantra, 'Love will always heal your heart', that allowed me
to weep further. Lawrence, who's wife of 25 years had died that year,
joined in on guitar. We both found a channel for grief through this
song, and played it the next day at the concert.
week a new song came inspired by Emoke and our re-connection. I called
it 'A friend like you'. Then, my wife Kitty, who is on a Daoist,
shamanic spiritual path, gave me two Kabbalah books to read for
Christmas, Jason Shulman's 'The Instruction Manual for Receiving God'
and Rabbi David Cooper's 'God is a verb', and reading these love-filled
volumes I began to feel a strong sense of grace and Divine Mother
welling up in my soul.
My response to this overwhelming sense
of higher love through sorrow was to write 'State of grace',
'Communion' and 'The golden thread'. Or rather, as is always the case,
they wrote me. Through illness, grief, loss, suffering, re-connection
with my twin-flame and the Kabbalah I channeled Mary and Jesus! A state
of grace wished to express itself through me and go out into the world.
Spirit cross-fertilises. The Divine Mother and the Christ-light, the
vessel and the creator, speak through the human condition and different
traditions, without boundary. It is the endless dance of love between
the Lover and Beloved, as the Sufi mystics softly proclaim. The
Kabbalah conjured up Mary!
During this time a friend sent me the
poem 'Footprints', by an evangelical Christian, Margaret Powers,
written in 1964. I felt immensely touched by this and adapted it for
song. It turned into a stirring anthem. Then, one morning soon after,
the name 'Eliador' was in my consciousness as I awoke. I googled it,
and found a couple of vague references to a Grail knight. Google also
listed it as the name of a warrior in a virtual combat game, loosely
based on Grail mythology! Two days later I awoke with a tune and a
whole verse. By now there was a heroine, Maryam… a Persian name!
wrote a 15-verse song in little over two hours, fluently, as if I'd
been writing an email. And all in rhyming verse! What I beheld when I
finished, or had been finished with, was a Grail story about the
sovereignty of the sacred feminine, and her struggle with the
patriarchal oppressor. The Divine feminine cannot be possessed, it must
be allowed sovereignty. Blimey! This became 'Maryam and Eliador'.
through the Kabbalah and the enduring inspiration I receive from Emoke,
and the graceful honesty of her life, I wrote 'Holy sparks'. It's an
idea from 'God is a verb', that the Divine Light in our being can be
seen and experienced as holy sparks.
And all this… all this
emotional turbulence, loss and re-connection… all this inspiration… all
these songs… all this I experience as a state of grace.